im the bitch that has so much to share.

KantoyaAndika

2008-04-20T22:17:00.003+08:00

oke,

i think i got over with him.

its time for me to move on.

alah,

meet him oso,

wait he go to other girls,

its like,

urgh*

makes my heart feel cold towards him.

WAIT!

maybe,

thats his motive.

to make me hate him.

hmm*

i might never know.

well,

lets just say,

he was just a memory.

Love;

Kiesha

Love ke?

2008-04-17T23:11:00.003+08:00

&yar,

i do love Andy.

but he doesnt.

so i think,

im just wasted.

so wasted la, oi!

how can i hate him?

i dont want to love him if i knew this would happen.

i dont even want to know him seh.

but its too late.

i tried running away from him,

but i cant.

my love for him is just too strong.

ps;

Andy,

if your reading my blog,

please tell me the truth.

let out all your feelings towards me.

talk to me,

communicate, oke?

&i love you.

2008-04-15T11:20:00.002+08:00

is this the Kiesha that you were looking for?

the sweet,

LittleMissKiesha

that was jovial &loving.

my love life.

2008-04-15T09:14:00.002+08:00

i went down Tanglin that day.

i met this guy, Andika.

maybe you know him, maybe you dont.

well,

i was attracted to him.

i didnt know if it was love or what la,

but this heart beats fast whenever he is near.

we got to know each other &i eventually fell for him like he did towards me.

he told me, he love me &i did too.

we were like couples since then.

i ran away from home just to be with him is one reason.

&another, i cant bear to part with him.

then suddenly,

one day,

he told me,

Kiesha,

i don't love you, i only cared.

i still love my ex.

omg*

was this an april fools joke or something?

it wasnt.

i cried like i never did before.

it was all fake love.

Andika,

listen.

all those memories we shared &the hope i put up on you,

is now, gone forever.

you gave me false hope to be with you.

i sacrificed everything just for you but in the end,

i lose everything.

you may call me dumb, stupid or even a jerk but i know that i wont get the love you have for your ex.

this ring, you gave me now has no meaning.

take it back cause i dont demand anything.

a single tear i shed for you now, has no significance.

thanks for being, a friend.

just a friend, oke?

Doaku agar kau kan selalu bahagia

Agar kau temui insan tulus menyayangimu

Lepaskanlah diriku kerna kerelaanmu

Bukan kerna dendam jua bukan kerna kau terpaksa

*Ku tinggalkan memori

Bersamamu

Ku undur diri bersama

Harapan

Tidak kesampaian cinta kita

Ku bawa harapan ku pendam rahsia

Ku dikejauhan mendoakan

Agar kau bahgia tiada lagi duka

Daku rela mengundur diri

Ku pasti dikau kan fahami

Tiada penyesalan kasih ku korbankan

Andai telah tertulis ku terima ini bukannya ku pinta

Pergilah dikau diiringi keikhlasanku

Cuma pengalaman mengisi kekosongan mimpiku

Love;

Kiesha

Dearest.

2008-04-05T08:50:00.002+08:00

Kiesha,
she was once a young little girl.
having fun with her family,
being the angel of everyone.
till one day,
this sweet little girl chose the wrong path &ended up in misery.
those people once loved her,
now hated her,
her attitude &all.
it wasnt meant to be this way but she chose her path which leaded to the wrong track.
to changed everything is much impossible.
Love;
Kiesha

Friends Of Mine; Your Loved By Me.

2008-04-05T08:48:00.001+08:00

let me start by apologising.

&im sorry for all the mistakes ive done towards everyone.

maybe some of you will find me different these past,

but im no longer myself i can say.

im just confused with situations around me.

maybe some of you can say that,

"problems can be solved &things will get worst if i run away from problems"some of you might even say,

"there are people out there with heavier problems"

but im a girl who is just turning 17 &these problems of mine,

are just to hard to handle.

im a girl who live to enjoy.

each day,

every single freaking day,

problems enter.

if i were to solve it,

till when will it end?

please some one,

explain the true meaning of life.

friends,

they could only advise but not solve my problem.

please people,

try to fit your feet into my shoes,

a size 6.

having so much shits around.

thanks &goodbye for now.

update on my life la, oi!

2008-04-02T21:11:00.003+08:00

gosh*
im now, a school dropout.
no more school for me.
i miss my friends la, oi!
my schoolmates i meant.
hmm*
i just came back from 3weeks of isolation at Melacca.
it really sucks, oke?

my dad,
he came back in my life, somehow.
lectures &scoldings is a habit in my life now.
i cant see my peeps, oke?
its like, what the hell! grrr*
now, i got no simcard seh!
hmm*
things are starting to get better between me &my stepmother.
oke la, tu.
just hear from me on my blog, aites?

love;
kiesha

Dear Dad.

2008-03-12T02:03:00.003+08:00

if your reading this,

its a true story.

happened today.

my Dad,

you gave me faith to live in this world.

you gave me life.

&today,

i hurt you deeply.

we're no longer Father &Daughter.

&im sorry,

cause its my mistake for letting you down.

your the only Father that i have in this world,

&now your gone.

you bought me a bracelet
&you threw it out of the window just like that.

you gave me wings to soar again when im down.

although sometimes,

your not there to lead me in the dark,

i know you love me, Dad.

&i love you as much as you love me.

the tears you shed for me today,

it was very worthy, Dad.

it all end today.

this is what mama told me,

"Mak, bilang Shasha,

orang tak akan ganaggu hidup dier lagi.

mungkin ini, katakata terakhir dari seorang Ayah untuk seorang Anak."

"Sha,

aba tak lama akan hidup di dunia ini.

Since, Shasha dah tak nak Aba lagi,

inilah yang hanya boleh Aba lafaskan.

kau jangalah carik aku lagi,

aku akan pergi meninggalkan kau &Mummy.

Janganlah carik aku bila kau bersanding lagi.

anggap lah aku ini,

orang luar yang tidak pernah kau kenal.

aku sayangkan kau seperti menatang minyak yang penuh

tetapi,

inilah balasan yang aku dapat.

I Love You very much, Shasha.

beacuse you are my eldest daughter.

please remember the times we had together, Sha.

Jagalah, Mummy baikbaik.

she's the only one you got now.

noone else is left in this world to guide you."

"Jangan kau pernah carik aku,

kalau aku sakit ke ape,

kau jangan pun sekali nak jenguk aku.

hati Aba telah hancur, Sha,

dengan katakata kau.

Aba mintak maaf ShaSha kerana telah hadir dalam hidup ShaSha.

ingat lah, Sha.

Bila Aba mati nanti,

engkau tetap BUKAN anak aku.

NurKaiyishah Binte Abdullah,

kini,

aku lepaskan kau dari genggaman &jagaan aku.

pandaipandai lah, kau menyara nanti.

Selamat Tinggal, anakku."

he packs his clothes &belongings &leave.

his footsteps still remains in my heart.

aku akan selalu merindui kamu,

oh, ayah!

walaupun kau selalu berpaling kepada ku,

engkau lah satusatu nya ayah yang ku ada.

dan sayangku terhadap dirimu tidak akan pudar sebagaimana kau tinggalkan aku, Ayah.

Aba,

ShaSha saynagkan Aba terlalu &ShaSha

telah membenci Aba tidak membatasi.

&i regretted everything i did to you.

i wish i could turn back the time &hold my words which are so hush.

Aba pergi,

meninggalkan ShaSha &tidak akan kembali lagi.

&aku,

seperti lilin yang membakar diri sendiri dengan api yang menyala.

oh, Ayah!

ampunkan lah, segala dosadosa ShaSha terhadap Ayah.

&disini,

akhirnya cerita tentang, Ayah.

dimana engkau berada, Ayah.

aku akan tetap mendoakan mu.

SalamSayang;

AnakMu, NurKaiyishah.

my Dear, Aida

2008-02-24T23:21:00.002+08:00

Aida la!

tyhee*

Kiesha mish you, oso!

urgh*

mish those times la, oi!

My Sotong!!!

grrh*

Love;

Kiesha

my Dear, Syak.

2008-02-24T23:17:00.002+08:00

Dear, your name got 'Nur' ke?

hmm*

Syak,

Kiesha miss You la, oi!

gaahh*

so long tak lepak with You &Elly &Maira &Aida oso!

grrrhh*

one day, Kiesha will.

Love;

Kiesha.

shopping la, oi!

2008-02-24T21:42:00.003+08:00

today, i went shopping.
yae!
pergi Bugis;
bought two pairs of faded jeans.
damn, nice sia!
tyhee*

then,
proceed to Expo,
got Metro sale!
&when there's a sale,
there's always Kiesha!
tyhee*

hmm*
then, my Bf called!
gaaaahhhh*
IMH.
LOL*

yawyawyaw*
Love;
Kiesha

Sunday Morning, Again!

2008-02-24T10:28:00.003+08:00

oke, this is me.

the model wanna be.

hoho*

nahh*

its more likely,

the HighClassBitch.

uh-huh.

i woke up alittle early today.

at 7plus.

but then,

of course i sleep back la.

now need to go Mosque seh.

very malas liao!

urgh*

hmm*

things i completed this morning;

download themes.

upload pidtures.

download songs.

update blog &friendster.

cool!

love;

kiesha

oi! leftover picture la, oi!

2008-02-24T01:28:00.002+08:00

ini adalah Kiesha &TemanTeman Kiesha.

Kami berada di bawah Brigde di Esplanade.

Kame bertiga, sedang berPosing.

oke?

Oke, Bye.

♥Kiesha

Kiesha sick la, oi!

2008-02-24T01:03:00.002+08:00

grr*

Kiesha sick la, oi!

its my first day, this month,

having period.

the cramp was unbearable!

urgh*

i slept the whole day through.

from morning till afternoon.

then,

at night.

Dad called.

he ask to get ready.

so i did!

we passed thru town,

so crowded.

so we proceed to Parkway Parade.

Dad wanted to buy me White Gold nyer Pendant

but like, tak jadi.

So, i go buy baju instead.

credits to Fox Ladies.

then, we went for dinner.

wanted to have it at Fish &Co.

but i changed my mind.

we went to Abc &eat

Seafood instead.

Damn*

was i full!

tomorrow is a new day,

hope to get a new start.

rough plans for tomorrow;

morning, go Mosque.

hmm*

Kiesha &Mosque so doesnt blend.

soon, proceed to Expo

because got Metro Sale!

&i'm so into it, cause got $100 voucher.

WAIT!

speaking of that,

i gotta find that voucher!!!

OMG*

better start now!

♥Kiesha

the day Zul got his pay.

2008-02-24T00:14:00.003+08:00

the bridge near Esplanade.

yesterday, Zulfikar got his pay.

&as usual,

i had to accompany him- shopping!

i went home as per normal,

with zul, san &acap.

but i stop at kallang cos daddy was there to fetch.

then, around 5plus.

i went to meet them at peninsula.

then, we shopped &shopped.

after that, we went to esplanade.

tak photos like mad.

haha*

pose here &there,

then, dah penat.

we rest pulak.

hee*

then, tgh rest tu,

we sempat take photo.

betulbetul giler lah, kiter nih!

then, we go makan at Marina Square nyer MacD.

the funny part is that,

i didn't know

that MacD sell,

ZINGER BURGER

kan Ihsan?! Bodos*

we then, went to the fountain of wealth.

then, balek la!

Acap need to answer call lagi.

haiy*

but it was fun noe,

except i'm the only girl.

haiy*

i miss Kecik being with me seh.

i wish they hadn't fight.

hmm* well,

♥kiesha

i ♥ four5four la, oi!

2008-02-17T12:53:00.003+08:00

i love, 454.

454 pon love kiesha, kan?

lol.

LittleMissKiesha ♥ NonyaSampokLongkang

2008-02-17T12:31:00.005+08:00

kecik &kiesha.

dear,

i went to the modelling agency the other day.

you know,

the one where we had our photoshoots.

our gambar already siap la, oi!

mine's gorgeous la, oke?

yours also!

serious, not lying.

although we had our laughter &giggles.

our pics turn out to be great.

i've choose my pics, already.

i ♥ you my camwhoring bitch.

hee*

♥kiesha

2008-02-17T12:18:00.002+08:00

this is nurkiesha.
this is like, my previous hairstyle.
then, i cut again, LOL.
♥kiesha.

new hair cut la, oi!

2008-02-16T22:20:00.002+08:00

i cut my hair la, oi!

i'm like very mangkok la, oke?

but i look cute though.

just now,
i went to bugis la, oi!
then,

the siket hari i go modelling right,

the picture dah siap,
they ask me to choose the pics.
it was, very nice la, oke?

potential model la katerkan.
but kecik's pics are nice, also la, oi!

hmm*

then,

lepas tu,

we went shopping.
not much stuff la, today.

cos i in no mood.

haiy*

ps; khairul didn't beep or text me, today. sigh*

i love my boyfie &i miss him, so much!

love;

kiesha

2008-02-16T09:59:00.002+08:00

the fued with kecik la, oi!

yesterday, was a good day.

nurul izzati binte zailani, siti marwani binte sa'adon, muhd faizal &fadli bin ayub,

they followed me home &waited for me to change.

then, we proceed to downtown.
at downtown, we met up with budak-budak 454.

very kecoh la, oke?

haha*

then, i had a fight with, kecik.

not fight la.

it was sort of a confront.

i've been very close with kecik right,

then, she sort of felt uneasy because i always helped her in terms of finance &stuff.

then, she told me that her mum doesn't like me.

i don't really mind helping kecik, even if her mum doesn't like me

because i'm very sincere in friendship.

maybe last time, i wasn't.

but now,

my mentality &maturity has increased.

i don't mind if parents thinks their child change because i'm a bad infuence.

because i'm not.

i really love my friends &my clicks.

hmm*

kecik,

don't feel uneasy or even have the thinking that your making my life difficult, oke.

like i told, you.

i'm sincere in helping you.

by hook or by crook, i'll always help you.

i don't need you to repay me or what.

but as long as you remeber me in anything you do,

that is enough.

if you feel that your always menyusahkan kiesha,

i will feel even bad because i do it sincerely &never asking anything for return.

i love you, kecik.

&i really want to last long in this friendship.

though we fight &all, i still love you &never want to throw you away.

we sign our cards and letters BFF

you've got a million ways to make me laugh

you're lookin' out for me; you've got my back

it's so good to have you around

you know the secrets i could never tell

&when 'm quiet you break through my shell

don't feel the need to do a rebel yell

cause you keep my feet on the ground

you're a true friend

you're here till the end

you pull me aside

when something ain't right

talk with me now and into the night

till it's alright again

you're a true friend

you don't get angry when i change the plans

somehow you're never out of second chances

won't say "i told you" when i'm wrong again

i'm so lucky that i've found

true friends will go to the ends of the earth

till they find the thing you need

friends hang on through the ups and the downs

cause they've got someone to believe in

then, later in the night,

i met up with daddy.

he was so fucking pissed because i came home late &he waited for me for about an hour

at bedok.

but he didn't scold me.

just for this once,

he treated me like an adult.

he slow-talked to me.

&i really understand what he wanted exactly.

well, that was outside.

at home,

he asked me,

"tell me the truth,

do you have a bf?"

i was like, stunned &was blank for awhile.

i told him, "yes, i do"

he asked about my dear bf &i told him everything.

he was cool with it.

then, he asked a bonus question la, oi!

"have you had sex?"

*silent* *blank*

"urh, no!"

well, it was like, ya!

i didn't have sex with my bf what.

what kind of girl, does he think, i am?!

urgh*

so stupid man.

oke-oke,

glad thats's over.

hmm*

yesterday was a bit rocky, though.

but i gained something.

love;

kiesha.

my blog la, oi!

2008-02-10T18:46:00.000+08:00

qiu,

i really appreciate it la, oke?
what you've done for me.
my blog looks nice &i love it la.

hoho*

link &tag me la, oi!
&i love it, all.
hoho*
your a true, friend.

hoho*
shitt*
dad's gotta use the comp.
haiy*

guess i'll stop for now.

toddles, la oi!

love;

kiesha

MSN-ing la, oke?

2008-02-10T14:03:00.000+08:00

start of msn,

haha*
kiesha talked to zamir la, oke?

haha*
really missed those times with him.
hoho*

dah seluar panjang sey, tu budak!
hee*
wdf~

pinochiopinochiopinochio.

LOL~

ey,

so bored.

soso bored la, oi!

hmm~

i love msn-ning.

oke, i'm layme!

sunday morning la, oke?

2008-02-10T12:54:00.000+08:00

woke up this morning to the sound of mum's radio.

then, i went out of the room,

there wasnt anyone.

i had my shower.

a LONG one in fact.

then,

ate.

haha*

kiesha dengardengar nari nak gi JB sey,

but tak tau confirm or not la.

wait!

if mama went home &take her passport,

that means,

CONFIRM la?!

sobssobs*

i want to meet my mr hottie la!

he mesti belum bangun kan?

biaser la kan,

orang gi clubbing semalam!

tyhee*

i love him la.

so much, though.

hmm*

&guess what?!

i dreamt i was pregnant la, oke?

with fathul's child!

ids like so, the omg!

haha*

though i know its not true.

anyway,

he should have moved on what.

like kecik say,

he got another girl.

hmm~

so, what's on with my life?

nothing much,

only thing that's getting on my nerve is,

my sister &my mum.

gosh*

cant' i spend my time blogging?!

like fuck seh.

tomorrow is the start of a new week for school;

after a quite long holiday.

hmm*

then, got modelling at four with kecik.

then, after that,

maybe kecik turon 454 &kiesha head home la.

i think.

kiesha's blogg is a little plain,

sarah tried to edit &customize it for me

but its a little, SOT.

tyhee*

well, sarah, dear.

thanks for putting effort in my blog,

seeing that i'm not good at editting.

besides,

i'm only good in friendstering, mah.

tyhee*

&not forgetting msning.

haha*

i really appreciate it la, oke?

lots of love;

kiesha.

daddy's birthday la, oi!

2008-02-09T16:01:00.000+08:00

oke,

kiesha going out now.

ids dad's birthday.

scratchscratch*

so blank sey!

what to buy.

must give gift meh?

hmm*

i don't like lah.

sometimes he is good, but other times,

he is bad.

grr~

kiesha betulbetul confused.

right now,

my little bro is standing in front of my face

&refraining me from watching happy feet.

grr~

he got psp seh!

what the hell.

hmm*

SLIM some more.

whatever la, oi!

okeoke.
my little sister is begging me for my earsticks la.

&my mum is asking me to shut down the comp &go siap.

alah~

nak pergi queensway la.
&my mummy nyer 'eau de toilette'

bau kuat la!

green tea lak tu.

so nice!

okeoke.

she dah siap.
now ids kiesha's turn.

till then,

kiesha is logging off, now.

bye, love.

kecik la, oi!

2008-02-09T15:55:00.000+08:00

♥kecik♥

i love you la, oi!

you seem to be the only one that understands me, oke?

haha*

i love you,

you love me!

hey!!!

naqibnaqib!

BARNEY potong tail la, oi!!!!

hurhur*

i love it la.

especiall when we are at 454.

only now,

i feel uneasy being at 454.

hoho*

you know, i know.

i know, you know.

hoho*

love,

i miss you, oke?

tyhee*

♥kiesha♥

new blog la, oi!

2008-02-09T14:37:00.000+08:00

♥kiesha's blog♥

gosh*

this is new.

hmm*

kecik had hers before kiesha does.

&ids like, "wow"

well,

actually,

kiesha had hers before kecik.

but the only thing is that,

kiesha forgot kiesha's password la, oi!

&i don't think i can update that often la,

cos its daddy's laptop.

&he often bring it to work.

last two days,

kiesha followed 454 to sentosa.

in the morning,

i met up with kecik.

then,

she said,

there wasn't anyone at 454.

so she fetched me at mrt la.

after that,

we proceed to 454.

then, they were there.

maybe kecik was too early la, oi!

haha*

very happy sey,

nampak dorang.

especially,

fathul hakim la, oke?

hoho*

kater kiesha nyer bf mah.

we then, waited for some of the rest.

okeoke*

nak ceritakan panjangpanjang,

nanti, korang malas nak bace kan,

so lets cut it short.

we dah sampai vivo

got a lot of bangla &thailand nyer orangorang.

sapersaper yange ikot?

hmm*

32 orang ikot sey.

i cant remember the names la.

then, ader fight la.

what la.

but the paling rabak thing is,

kiesha fought with fathul la.

grr~

i just can't understand why must it happen this way.

oke, maybe i was the one who started it first.

but, hey!

i'm your gf &you should know that i love you pretty much, right?

urgh*

whatever la.
but what i know now is,

ids over between kiesha &fathul.

i hope 454 won't be made at me la,

cause its between kiesha &fathul, kan.
&kiesha tak nak lose 454 because of this.

hmm~

dear, fathul.

if your reading this,

kiesha hope you will be able to understand.

i'm really sorry if i've caused so much hurt in you,

&i don't have the intention to leave a deep cut in you.

honestly speaking,

kiesha know you hate kiesha.

alhamdulillah*

but i'll be able to accept the fact

that i am no longer with you.

tapi, kiesha tak sedap seh.

duduk satu kampung, tapi bermusuh.

kiesha tak kesah if fathul hate kiesha nyer perangai.

but takmo masukkan dekat dalam kampung la.

i hope we will still remain friends.

&lastly, kiesha got bear no grudges between you, oke?

love;

kiesha.